Rabu, 11 September 2013


Can't get enough of Tulus-Sewindu song in my ears. And here's some of daily quotes i found deserve to be displayed here

“So, I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.”
― Paulo CoelhoThe Alchemist

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.” 

“One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.” 
 Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

Selasa, 10 September 2013

the other side of God's creature

beforehand, this post is created because I was bored. literally :p
not to mention my narcistic side, but just to reveal what people don't know about myself.
well, there's still a bunch of things from me that might be amaze people. but lemme tell you a few of 'em here.

here we go...

1. I'm a coffee-addict. A caffein kisser, a fresh brewed coffee hunter or what you called it. I can't wonder this world, early in my morning without a cup of coffee in my hand. Being a coffee addict means that you'll get dizzy or badmood when you haven't taste a single cup of coffee in a wholeday yet. Terrible... but that's the fact. I'll turn into a monster without my daily coffee.

2. I'm a futsal player, and think to be serious in this sport. Actually, I am a sport enthusiast but futsal has a special place and contribution in my life. I learned many things from futsal that i couldn't find in other sport. I learned how to press myself to the limit when it comes to deliver a winning to the team. I learned how to be humble if the team already got the medal. I learned how to be not satisfied enough with current prestige. And futsal tought me how to built a family based on truth, power, and blood.
And i love my little family here. my backnumber 17 which describe my spirit always stay 17. And there's still so many reason undescribeable.

3. I love music but can't decided well where's my type belongs to. I love to hear various music. from jazz to death metal. from pop to house music. I can replay the song over and over and moves to the other song then listen it over and over again. I hear the song basically to describe my mood or even to boost it up. I love Sigur Ros, Maroon5, One Republic, Coldplay, Dave Koz, Phil Collins, Dream Theatre, Alesana, BMTH, Lamb of God, Nirvana, Paramore, Phillip Phillips, Andre Hehanusa, Chrisye, Raisa Andriana. see? a various of artist and kind of music X)) lol.

4. I'm a true adventurer. IN ALL OF BASE. neither its a food adventure, nature ranger and so on. I can't stop my feet to walk and get me lost somewhere. Because become an adventurer taught me something, you may found out interesting thing/place you've never known before when you get lost somewhere.
I have so many list of places i want to leave the footprint over.
I want to hike Mahameru on my 18 bday! *my most wanted place to hike for*
I want to go to Raja Ampat, New Zealand, Japan, England, Swiss,Africa, UAE, Jerussalem etc

5. I'm a petlover. Currently in love with reptils again after severals year play with mamalia pet. So far, I've been kept a homey pet such as cat, dogs *baby german shepherd and pomeranian*, birds *my father used to have them*, turtles, fresh water fishes, tokek or maybe you all used to called it gecko, sawah snake lololol, and roaster, and bithces .

6. I want to have a marriage as soon as possible when already meet the right person. Why need so long time and decision when you know he's already the right one?

7. I'm a chinese. nuff said.

8. I love my taste of fashion. I called it hermaphrodite taste. What? Where da hell on earth you can find a gurl like me, wearing a biker boots instead a highheels when it comes to dress? Sometimes you need to be a bit flaky about your own style. I love wearing bikerboots, Docmart, even a Jeffrey Campbell and beautifull yet terrific pair of Loubutin! Sometimes, you'll find me dress up edgy, vintage, yet simple, but the othher day you'll catch me in my leather jacket, black tee, and bikerboots.

9. I love to talk with someone. or maybe everyone. even it's an unworthy topics, and the serious one that will make us debate each other and end up laughing our ass off. My parents said, i should find peoples that would hear my story patiently or maybe become a chatting partner in my life. why? because when we're getting old, there's nothing we can do except sit down in the terrace with afternoon sunset and blabbering things each other. sweet :)

10. I'm not a well-obeyed Moslem but I believe with God's existence. i don't like a wall that people built to create a different between Religion X and Religion Y. Why we have to be different each other? have you ever wonder if you were born in a family of a different religion with what you believe now? Haven't you? ;)
For me, every single day I lived, every breath i take, every new morning i catch, that's because I'm living on God's path choosen for me. I have no regrets for what I've been done because that's all what makes me like nowaday.

maybe that's all for now


Senin, 09 September 2013

Of Monster and Men - Little Talks

Can't get this song out of my head! hahah
This song also boost up my mood to start a serious-writing again, maybe because i found out my old story draft on my facebook's note today haha
And maybe because this is someone who influenced me to write something deep,serious,and sentimental again

we'll see

The quiz said it was me....

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

Haha dunno what to say but this is considerably true

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.


Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

I've had many relationship, and don't really find the right man one. Still in hunting progress lol. but about readiness, yes. I've been very ready since i declare myself to marry with someone I feel suits with me and able to become my life-partner. because marriage is once in a lifetime.
Wish God will have the scenario to meet me with right man soon.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

As I said, loving and flirting is a different things y' know?
Seriousness should be given to right person.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

Very true

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

50:50 sometimes, i want to build my own kingdom of business, but sometimes i'm thinking too many risk that makes me don't have a step.
sometimes i just want to have a particulary working life as others, with steady income, but NOT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I want to collect money little by little to built what i dreamed before. Yeah a cutcross-way to reach a goals.
but i always pray to The God to leads me to my dream soon and not too long :)

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.


What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Actually, I'm afraid of losing someone i used to hire them as my side-family, the sudden change of someone and cockroach. da hell on earth should be a disgusting creature like cockroaches?!

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

yep. because I'm a woman. but Thanks to experience. at least i learned to be more gratefull for what i have and be more mature everyday




"Don't left your love one too long or too soon. Because you don't know the feeling of waiting someone you love for too long and you might can't find out is she/he miss you by leave them too soon" - Nyoron 20130909

Dunno. My mind fighting against my ego and idealistic side recently.
Somehow i ask myself  "Is this relationship works?"

Ya, kita emang udah milih dan nerima resiko buat LDR, tapi kok pas awalnya emang gampang aja gitu dijalanin. makin kesini malah makin berat. Lama-lama we used to not contacted each other. I think, I've tried to be patient, to push my ego away, still tryin to get used with this condition.
But somehow my heart said "don't you feel you rather be a friend than a girlfriend with this current condition?"

I tired to press my ego off.
I tired act like an adult while my heart wants to shows my true nature

I think i can't hold this feeling anylonger. The feeling of missing someone that unreachable because separated by distance. hehe

Honestly, I'm easily fallin love with someone. But i don't ever expect to fallin with other while having one. But heart doesn't lie.

So keep me by your side before you'll be the man who WAS in my life

Ah anyway, 8-9-2013 we did our 1st month of relationship. hahah. just wish that everything will works. and fine. and great.

I don't wanna hurt you, so you must to do so.

A simple goodmorning or goodnight text is enough to relieve my curiousness, than you left me without any news before.


Senin, 02 September 2013

Swing My Hair Swings

I'm back! Yes I'm back from my daily routine hehe.
It was a bit busy working time last week so I can't even post a single thing. When i already sat on my chair and open my laptop, i forgot of what I'm gonna post. hehe :p

Anyway, yesterday i decided to cut my hair. It was a short decision after woke up on my nap. My collar-bone-long hair is became so frizzy and hard to be styled also took too much time  for grow. After got explanation from stylist, i should cut the frizz regulary to let the new hair grows easily.

Here's the tips from my stylist to make my hair grow faster :
- no more late sleep
- be stressfree
- eat more foods contains Omega 3 & 6 and nabati fat and oil
- brush my hair before go to sleep
- mask my hair regulary *she suggest me to mask my hair three times a week*
- cut my hair once a month

well, my old hair become so frizz because Jakarta's weather lately also I'm a motorcycle rider which means I stuffed with UV rays, dirts, and helmet-shaped/ I asked the stylist for not tu cut it too long because i want to keep my hair long as well.
My first impression after the cut is "I thought it was a bit shorter than i asked beforehand?"
But I have no more complain :)
I trick my swings-out hair with bobby pins on its right side. I miss this style. I always hide my ears beneath my hair to cover my chubby cheeks. hehe
but the goodnews is, my cheeks looks more slimmer now. thanks to great exercise! :D I'm not afraid to show up my cheeks again after done the Muay Thai training from Timo~. i lost about 3 kilos this week.

The old hair one //sobs

New Hair!!

tryin to make up a new image

anyway AFA is upcoming this week!! fully excited
there'll be my brother's bday on 4th September
He'll gettin 19 this week. hahahah!

Sylvan Zikri Rahman, gettin older :p

I miss my bf too. he is become so busy lately with college stuffs and it's so hard to contact him. *sigh*
Wish this September will be allright and great!

Happy Autumn