Get Lost

Pernah kah lo mencoba setidaknya once in your lifetime buat get lost? Lo berjalan tanpa arah, tanpa tujuan, dan gak direncanain sebelumnya. Pernah? Kalo belom, lo berarti harus nyoba!

Jadi, selasa malem kemarin 15/04/2014 bertepatan dengan Blood Moon (gue baru tau fakta ini pas pulang), gue pergi dari rumah sore-sore.  Iseng aja sih berhubung gue juga lagi pengen keluar tapi gak tau kemana. My mind keeps telling me to go everywhere my feet direct me. So, berangkatlah gue ke stasiun jam 5 sore dari rumah. I just brought my sketch book, drawing kit, sweater, and my phone. Saat dijalan, I found everything around me fascinated. Mulai dari langit yang setengah mendung setengah terik, kumbang, foto Iwan Fals di halte bus, and everything. Gue cuma mau menyibukkan diri gue *especially my mind* dari suara-suara yang kayak ngeledek kelakuan gue. Kelakuan yang mana? Lari dari masalah? Well...

Gue gak lari masalah. Gue cuma mencoba mencari my inner peace.

And my decision to seek my inner peace is stay away from people around me.

Gue ngambil kereta di stasiun Tebet, randomly. Kereta apapun yang available gue ambil. Dan saat itu yang available adalah jurusan Bogor *which so packed that time, but.....* my mind and universe dragged my feet to stop by UI train station. Turun dari stasiun, gue cuma ngelangkah asal aja. Jalan dari stasiun ke FIB, muterin danau sampe bego, balik lagi ke kandang rusa, terus iseng nyari kost si Asep yang katanya dia ngasih clue ke gue di belakang tembok stasiun UI samping apartemen persis. Ya, gue jalan aja. Iseng banget anjir nyari-nyari kostnya. Ternyata ketemu, nyempil kayak gang forbidden. Hahaha.

Setelah ketemu gangnya, gue balik ke stasiun, rencana mah mau langsung pulang gitu. Ternyata masih belom diizinin pulang sama Tuhan. Gue ngeliat street musician di samping rel UI yang ngarah ke gang es pocong. Pas banget mereka mainin lagu kesukaan gue, The Smiths. Awalnya gue pura-pura duduk seberang mereka sambil ngarahin hape. Eh batrenya lobet, hahah. Terus bassist dari musisi jalanan itu manggil gue buat duduk sebelah mereka aja. I took the chance. Pas gue duduk itu gue mikir, kenapa gak gue sket mereka aja ya? Sekalian belajar lah live sketch. Pas mereka lagi beraksi *they played blues and country musics anyway* gue live sketch mereka. Entah kenapa, hari itu tangan gue lancar banget. Garis demi garis bisa gue bikin dengan mudah padahal mereka keep moving. Hasilnya? Well, gue cukup puas kok dan mereka juga seneng karena ada random girl kucuk-kucuk nge sket mereka. Gue juga dapet oleh-oleh tanda tangan mereka, pin BB accordion player *yang ternyata suka banget sama sket gue*, sama request lagu 2 : Killing Me Softly dan Imagine.

Sampai situ doang?

Engga!

Dalem perjalanan ke stasiun, gue harus top up KMT karena saldonya gak cukup. Sebenernya gue udah diburu waktu pulang sih, tapi semua berubah ketika gue nyampe loket KMT and saw a guy. This guy, at first sight was really funny yet polite. Gue gak fokus selama top up tiket. Dia ngomong apa gue nya lola banget jawabnya. I dunno why, my mind just worked that way. Selesai top up, gue mikir sayang banget sih kalo langsung pulang. So, gue minggir sebentar nyari-nyari buku sket gue. Then, dia nanya ke gue “nunggu siapa?”

Gue jawab, “gak kok. Nunggu kereta” Asliiiii tolol banget kan jawabannya? Hahaha.

Setelah itu, gue bersandar di tiang dan mulai uick sketch dia. Sumpah gue sadar banget itu sket terancur semaleman ini, tapi bodo amat. Dia tampangnya udah mulai ngeri gitu, takut gue santet kali ya hahah. Yaiyalah secara, gue random people, bertindak mencurigakan gitu sejak awal dan tau-tau diem diem nge sket dia. Tapi, seru juga ternyata nakutin orang #woyyy.

Selesai nge sket *damn, gue bahkan inget namanya* gue nunjukkin sket itu dari jauh dan dia ngelambai ke gue. Gue gak sempet jawab pertanyaan dia karena loket lagi penuh. Trus akhirnya gue masuk ke stasiun dan minta tandatangan dia. He asked me my Path id. Dan, yaudah sampe situ aja. Hahaha.

Gue belajar, bahwa ternyata kita harus melihat dunia dari banyak sudut pandang. Bener kata Trinity (blog traveler yang terkenal di Indonesia gara2 buku The Naked Traveler series), Travel teaches us to look this world wider yet closer.

I met new people randomly and I created a new unique story into my life page. At least, those unique stories would able to shut up the devils inside my head and make me forget about what past has been done to me.

You know, pertemuan gue sama this random adorable guy kesannya kayak dibuat-buat ya? Tapi ya gitu deh. Gue cuma gak sengaja pengen nge sketsa mukanya sekalian nunggu kereta *yang ada malah gue ketinggalan dua kereta*. You know, if one day I able to make enclosure with him, I wish we can write a great and nice  story as the way I met him J

Thanks for reading!

Nyoron

Ps : photos taken from my Instagram acc @nyooron

Kebetulan?

Just found out something weird yet heartwarming today.

Do you believe in coincidence?

Me? I do! :) but I'll explain it in my own way

Gue percaya semua yang terjadi di dunia ini kebetulan. Kebetulan yang direncanakan it is ;)

Why? karena gue percaya gak mungkin ada suatu kebetulan yang tidak direncanakan oleh Tuhan dan diri lo sendiri. Loh, kan ini kebetulan kenapa direncanakan diri sendiri?

Let me draw you a scene, lo bertemu si A. Lo deket sama dia lama kelamaan jadi makin suka dan akhirnya lo jadian. Then, you come at the point when everyhting goes wrong and you break up. Then you suddenly meet other guy or even re-contacted with old one. Kitalah yang merencanakan dengan siapa kita ingin berhubungan satu sama lain. Kita lah yang membentuk skema dan cabang hubungan dengan siapa saja kita ingin bertemu, mengucapkan selamat tinggal atau justru berpisah.

Kebetulan-kebetulan yang lo alami di dunia ini, selain rencana dari pribadi lo, juga bantuan semesta. This universe knows you too well to delivery everyone worthed come and go into your life.

Temen gue, seorang tarot reader. Gue pertama kali ketemu dia pas HaiDay 2013 di Senayan kemarin. Dia bilang gak ada yang kebetulan di dunia ini. Gue detik itu bisa ada di booth dia, karena semesta yang menarik langkah gue kesana. Gue yang saat itu menentukan langkah gue ingin kemana, se random apapun itu. Till I went ahead to his booth and talked too much things. We did fun. I comfort being on his side and shared our thoughts each other. Dia bilang, semua orang saling memiliki magnet satu sama lain. Magnet itu yang berhubungan dengan semesta dan menciptakan (atau memanipulasi otak) seakan-akan kita terlibat coincidence. Padahal, sejak awal magnet di diri kita inilah yang akan menyeleksi dengan sendirinya siapa aja yang ingin kita masukan ke kehidupan kita.

Terus kalo dalam diri kita sendiri udah ada magnet yang bisa menghubungkan kita ke orang lain, why there's always unfortunately coincidence where we meet wrong guy?

Itu tetap direncanakan oleh jiwa dan semesta. Mereka masuk ke kehidupan lo, meski pada akhirnya berpisah, selalu memiliki interest point dengan jiwa lo yang saling tarik menarik. Yaah, meskipun pada akhirnya interest point itu menguar atau mereka melakukan kesalahan fatal yang dimana jiwa lo tidak bisa menolerir lagi. Intinya, jangan pernah menyesali siapapun yang datang, pergi, maupun tinggal dalam kehidupan lo. Karena itulah yang direncanakan semesta. Untuk membentuk diri lo. Diri lo yang sekarang.  Gue percaya, semua orang yang sekarang ada di hidup gue walau cuma sekedar temen atau bahkan orang yang deket banget sama gue, gue lah yang menentukan mereka akan tinggal atau pergi. As simple as that!

That's what I believe :)

this post presented for my friends around me which 'bothering' my imagination lately!

Sylvan Zikri Rahman : 04 Sept 1994

Rachman C. Muchlas : 04 Sept 1984

Made Nusha Sucipta : 18 Juli 1996

Andre Pudyastomo   : 18 Juli 1987 (beda 10 tahun men ama gue wakaka :)) )

Aldo Reynaldo         : 17 Juli 1997

Aji Nanda Permana : 20 Februari 1994

Bayu Febianto         : 20 Februari 1987

Fahmi Radityamurti : 19 November 1991

La Pose Tamarind     : 30 Oktober 1997

Choirul Hidayanto    : 16 Oktober 1996

See? :)) much of them have a lots of same interest point with me :)

Ciao!

Offscreen Use Somebody (maybe)

Another night of me thinking about you again, A. May this universe gives me break just a moment, more than a hour to live up my life being so careless of demons inside my head?

Well, honestly, tonight I’m the one who allowed myself to re-open my Pandora box about you, A. I thought I was throwing off the key and got it lost somewhere. But, unfortunately I always get the duplicate somewhere. Meanwhile my laptop play Use Somebody by Kings of Leon. One of million triggers which brings back my memory about you, the lucky bastard. I remember you sang this before we went for our first date. That time, I could easily enjoyed the song. But tonight, I can barely understand the lyrics. Every words shout out from Caleb Followill throat, strikes my sanity.

Aku melihat satu-satunya foto kita yang tersisa di laptopku setelah sebelumnya semua foto tentangmu aku hapus. Aku bersandar di dada mu, kita sama-sama tersenyum lebar. Senyum lebar pertamamu bersamaku, senyum terakhir pula yang terekam lensa kamera. Dengan latar suara bariton Caleb, dimana lirik ‘You know that I could use somebody’ bergema di kuping juga kepala ini, aku berpikir : Apakah disaat itu kamu juga sedang menafikan orang lain untuk membiarkan egomu tetap menyala?

Apakah setiap hal yang kita lakukan dulu hanyalah adaptasi off screen dari lagu Use Somebody? Hanya untuk membuktikan bahwa kamu adalah laki-laki yang pantas dikejar? Apakah kamu berpikir seperti yang sedang aku lakukan sekarang? Wasting time and being careless with a guy just to state myself that I’m wanted. Padahal, setan dalam kepalaku terus berteriak “What are you actually doing?”

I don’t know. How I name it? Fooling around?

How you name it?

Atau ketika lirik ‘I hope that’s gonna make you notice. Someone like me’ menamparku. Apakah yang aku lakukan dulu telah membuatmu sadar akan kehadiranku? Should I tell you how to value a presence is by absence of someone or thing you’re used to had? Atau haruskah aku yang menampar diriku sendiri karena terlalu lama membuang waktu hanya untuk mematikan akal sehat dan logika bahwa sebenarnya kita sudah tamat? Bahwa aku sudah tidak perlu lagi berusaha membuatmu notice of my presence.

Aku sudah berubah. Aku sudah bukan lagi wanita yang kamu kenal dulu atau pula yang orang lain pernah kenali. Cara pandangku tentang sebuah hubungan sudah jungkir balik sejak tiga bulan lalu. Keseriusan terlalu mudah dihanguskan dan kepercayaan terlalu sulit dikembalikan. I could be so careless, and forget easily. Tapi bagaimana bisa aku melupakannya bila untuk memaafkan saja rasanya setengah mati. Memaafkan diriku dan kebodohanku. Sepertinya aku hanya meninggalkan mereka, bukan memaafkannya. Lalu, aku membentuk diriku yang baru yang aku harap lebih kuat daripada hari kemarin.

Sampai akhirnya aku menunggu, A, menunggu suara Caleb Followill ini berhenti bergema dan hanya terisi percakapan antara aku, dan orang yang suatu saat aku izinkan kembali tinggal di dalam sini, di hatiku.

 Luv,

Nyoron

PresoteaID with /TheOtakuNetwork/

Jumat lalu, gue lagi asik buka fb pas tiba-tiba liat trit di grup /ton/ dari Choro. Trit yang isinya invitation buat ikutan tea-tasting Presotea Indonesia yang baru buka outlet di Lotte Shopping Avenue. Gue langsung tertarik buat ikut soalnya : 1. Minum teh gratis (HAHA) 2. Mallnya deket sama rumah 3. Minggu ini nganggur parah (so why not?). So, setelah daftar, terkumpullah beberapa anak /ton/ yang ngisi kuota hari itu tanggal 15 Maret 2014.

Presotea (akronim : Espresso and Tea) adalah brand bubble tea asal Taiwan yang dibangun pada tahun 2006. Franchisenya baru masuk Indonesia akhir 2013 kemarin (emang agak telat sih ya, but nevermind). Sejak muncul 3 bulan lalu, Presotea sudah mempunyai branch di kota besar seperti :

1. C3 Building Puri Indah Blok O2 No. 1-3 Kembangan, Jakarta Barat
2. Lotte Shopping Avenue (Jl. Prof. Dr. Satrio Kav 3-5, Jakarta) FoodAvenue Lt.4
3. Plaza Medan Fair (Jl. Jend. Gatot Subroto No. 30, Medan) Lt 1 #Island 5
4. Paris Van Java (Jl. Sukajadi No. 129-139, Bandung) Sky Level (Blitz Junction)
5. Istana Plaza (Jl. Pasar Kaliki No. 121-123, Bandung) Lt 1

“Ah, palingan kayak bubble tea yang biasa di mal itu. Basi”

Eitts, jangan salah! Presotea ini beda loh. Pas gue baca variannya, ternyata mereka lebih banyak variasi fresh tea dibanding milk tea kayak brand yang udah marak sekarang. Pilihan topingnya juga beragam, mulai dari coconut jelly, aloe vera, red bean, sampai pearl bubble.

Presotea juga gak menampung teh nya di dispenser. Jadi, mereka punya kantung teh yang baru akan di brewed ketika memesan. Mesin brewed mereka mirip ama mesin espresso (dari situ makanya lahir nama Presotea). Kantung teh mereka bisa tahan sampai 1 tahun tetapi mereka mengganti ketika sudah 6 bulan penyimpanan demi kesegaran rasa dan aroma. Beberapa teh mereka yang sudah diseduh duluan juga akan dibuang setiap 4 jam sekali karena rasanya akan menguar (teroksidasi bersama udara).

Nah, ini 4 varian teh utama nya! Taa-daah~

1.       Gyokuro Sencha

Ini dia iconic tea dari Presotea. Cara pembuatannya bisa dibilang unik dan feels banget. Jadi, daun teh yang lagi berkembang ditutup dengan terpal dan menghalangi sinar matahari yang akan masuk. Hebatnya, pucuk tehnya tidak mati meski tidak mendapat sinar matahari dan melihat indahnya dunia ketika remaja #tsaah. Pucuk teh akan mengeluarkan chemical kimiawi yang perlahan merubah rasanya. Kandungannya otomatis lebih tinggi dan lebih baik ketimbang pucuk teh biasa! Teh yang hebat ternyata dibuat melalui proses yang menyakitkan *lap airmata*. Kalo kata gue sama anak /ton/ kita nyebutnya hikkiteamori :)) #dihajarmassa.

Ø  First taste            : agak pahit, ngeluarin aroma seperti minyak ikan kod di langit mulut.

Ø  After taste          : manis, sepet tehnya pas dan terasa ringan di mulut.

2.       Blueberry Fruit Tea

Tea which brings smile around us only by its aroma! Recommended banget. Aroma wanginya yang heavenly berasal dari campuran blueberry sama bunga hibiscus. Rasa sepet, asam, manisnya juga seimbang banget. Rasanya gak tega minum teh ini karena wanginya itu enaaak banget. Bikin senyum, hehe.

Ø  First taste            : manis berry, sedikit asam, aromnya kuat tapi gak nyengat.

Ø  After taste          : sepet teh dan berry bercampur jadi lebih pekat

ini lagi nyobain 'jeroannya' Blueberry tea

3.       Coffee and Green Tea

Me, personally sebagai pecinta kopi agak pesimis ama rasanya. Apalagi kopi dan teh itu rada gak nyambung buat di fusion. Mereka memakai kopi Arabika yang menurut lidah gue agak over-roasted sehingga aromanya terlalu strong tapi cepet hilang di mulut. Tehnya gak terlalu memberi kesan dominan karena agak sulit bedain sepetnya pas udah ke blend. I guess they use 70:30 for coffee and tea mixture. Xoxo lah.

Ø  First taste            : aroma kopi dominan, sepetnya lumayan

Ø  After taste          : nothing special kecuali rasanya yang light dan gak bikin mulut pekat.

4.       Okinawa Brown Sugar (super recommended)

Sebelum ini dituang, ranking pertama masih dipegang Blueberry Fruit Tea sesuai rekomen Choro. Tapiiiiii, ternyata teh pilihannya Topan ini kacau enaknya. Surga tingkat ke delapan deeeh. Aroma brown sugarnya dapet banget dan bikin hati serta otak gue diabetes parah *lap iler*. This tea is just too perfect laa! Topan once said “lo tau gak saking perfectnya ini gue gatau mau namain apa selain cendol” gue sama anak-anak langsung ngakak denger his humble opinion.

Masih ada juga Royal Honey Earl Grey, Black Sugar Ginger Tea, Japanese Genmaicha, dan Matcha Fresh Milk Tea :) Pas pulang dikasih goodie bag juga yang isinya dua voucher default, dua voucher redeemable senilai Rp 100.000, keychain, dan dua kaleng kecil Golden Oolong Tea dan Darjeeling Tea (horee!)

follow twitter mereka -> @PresoteaID

like facebooknya juga -> Presotea Indonesia

after event cheese!

have a good day!
Nyoron~

Karena Aku Terus Berjalan

Aku merasakan jumputan kata-kata itu untukku.
Kepada kakak yang telah memberikanku pelajaran 6 bulan lalu.
Tentang cinta, sakit, dendam, kemenangan, kehilangan, dan disayangi.
Aku telah berjalan kembali di jalur yang ku bangun beserta mimpi.
Mimpi baru tanpa kakak di sisi.
Mimpi milikku sendiri.
Mimpi yang selalu ku percaya akan membawaku bahagia.
Tanpa kakak disini.

Karena aku terus berjalan,
aku tak ingin menebak apakah kakak akan mengejar.
Dan rasanya aku tidak perlu khawatir soal itu.
Kita telah memilih jalan masing-masing.
Seperti yang kakak katakan dahulu.
"jalan kita akan saling silang bila waktunya nanti tiba"

Aku tidak meminta kakak untuk menungguku
atau mengejarku
Tapi jika kakak menginginkanku kembali
Maaf aku tidak bisa, untuk saat ini sepertinya.
Karena aku terus berjalan dan tak mau menoleh ke belakang.

Mari kita hidupkan jalan yang kita pilih!
Sampai jumpa kakak!
Karena kita akan terus berjalan, bukan?


Jakarta, 6 Maret 2014

The Art of Waiting

Have you ever feel like nothing supposed to be yours?

Have you ever feel like things you wanted so bad fallen on to someone else?

Have you ever feel like this cosmic doesn’t give you a damn for your wish?

Mine? I do.

I often think about circumtances around me. There’s plenty of time whenever things I picked up as my list suddenly worn out and bent to somebody else. I’ve experienced a kind of phase. My friend, she’s so gorgeous, smart *not in sarcastic way*, and wanted. I don’t want seems so arrogant here, but “Why nobody wants me as her does?”.

To blabbering shits here, I want to explain my point of view about her. Yes, she’s smart but just in some subject. She does good at math, physic, and so on. But she’s rather known to be “first class popper” than “mrs. Ocean of knowledge”. Me the number two. I bet you for her acknowledge about who the hell is Abraham Lincoln, she didn’t even get a clue. Is that my analogy straight enough?

Second, she’s gorgeous. She’s a teenage dancer, has a sexy body yet proportional and models look-a-like. Me? I’m not kind of things I mentioned above. I’m short, my body not proportional. But I love mine, and grateful about that. Why must I waste my time asking for what I can’t get since in the first place? Perhaps I don’t have a proportional size, a mezmering style which caught everyone sight but I just love the way I am. But, well to be honest, every man wants a great pieces. Instead of finding what great inside, they find what great outside. I can’t blame them anyway because the way I love men both from their looks and intelligence they had.

Men usually get impressed by looks first. What I can learn from highschool lovers is, they rarely looking for someone which has a great intelligence and enjoy talking nothing in a long term. That’s why I found less interest for man in my age. Their ego and pride insulted if they didn’t get a beautiful woman or so on (eventhough I know rest of them still alive, but who cares?). Brain? Who’s have it?.

Most of highschool man needs an approval. Aprroval of what? Approval of existence of course. Going to hype places, having a brand new devices, and shits they don’t even know what’s for. My logic get insulted by how dumb they live for. Mayhaps, they don’t know what their goals, what their aim for living, and what’s thing they really wanted and how to get it instead begging from their parents. Imagine how sucks it is. (Once again, I talked about majority)

I already seems so arrogant, don’t I? So let’s make it even further.

She’s bitch

But she doesn’t kill my vibe. Someone told me: “In life, you’ll find a phase when you feel waiting is worthed. No need to rush, no need to be worried. What you really wanted will comes to your way. But you acquired to fighting, that’s the rule”

I can’t agree anymore.

My friend whom I mentioned here, wanted by many man. I can’t blame her for having such a good-looking face, rite? The only thing I can compare with her is my knowledge. But back to square one, men usually impressed by looks. *can you hear my sarcastic laugh here?*

She’s wanted by my teacher too. My very-fucking-awesome teacher. Haha *cries of pity*. To be honest, I just like the way my teacher taught us. Nothing more. He’s actually good looking but I knew he already have a girlfriend. And I hold on to rule don’t take somebody’s belonging. But whyyyyyyyyyyyy God whyyyyyyyyy? I felt thrown away when my teacher asked: “Is that M already have a boyfriend?”. How come I should answered that question?

“Oh well, she’s single. But she’s a pathetic bitch whose wanted by many and looking for her prince (which this way meant: PDKT to this and that and pick them as she does grocery shopping, Doesn’t like, then throw away).

No, instead answered with that, I prefer a smooth way of talking

“She’s single. But she’s now having a date with someone”

I need a glass of margarita or cosmopolitan.

Does she mentioned every attention they deliver to her? Yes, she does.

She said she doesn’t want to seems “sok jual mahal” or cocky. BUT CAN YOU PLEASE MAKE A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BEING COCKY AND BITCHY PUHHLEASE? Isn’t it so bitchy by replying every bbm and messages from whoever adored you? Gah!

Close enough, my haid is in pain and my head remnisince me by Kings of Leon song.

Nyoron

Turning 17....

This is already 1 week passed since 20th of February.
What? Complaining? My birthday! \ :D /
Now, I'm already 17 which means I'm legal for having babies *shuuuut up* at this age.
Welp, not. I'm not going to have any babies, for this moment for sure. :p
Happy bday too for Mas Bayu Febianto, Aji Nanda Permana, and Aulia Monova. Beergahayu!

all pic taken from Google

snowdrop - a flower of big hopes

So, about turning 17.
Heck, I'm feeling so old. Not really, but hey it just 3 years away before my 20. You know, time flies and every inches of particle in this universe moving so fast. I imagine myself still wearing a red-short-skirt and cengangas-cengenges running anywhere.
Now, I'm oficially mature by goverment.

What I can say this year is, I learnt a lot of things.

Last year, I'm still with my (ex) boyfriend. He gave me a large Danbo pillow and celebrated with some Ramen treat :). We were still a great couple back then before we broke up. My hair was still short, my glasses was on its old frame, my body height was 148cm, and any good nor bad memories on my head still tingling in my mind. Everything changed so fantastic even surreal.

This year, I reached 150cm tall. I'm no longer with my (ex)boyfriend. I'm single now with a lot of adventures waiting ahead. I'm on 2nd grade of highschool. And many many opportunities wit to be realized.

On my bday post last year, here I had a lot of wishes that doesn't works well. It's okay. Despite conceal the fail, I found out another way to fulfill my dreams. Maybe these way come not in a good expectation but afterall I got what I should learned :D.

I still can barely remember on 19th February last year I came to Breda's house to celebrate his bday. And the next day he texted me happy bday too. I'm too happy too resist. But this year it seemed that he forgot my bday (which only a day after his) and being the last person whom texted me.

I can remember too the conversation between me and my ex last year a week before my bday.

"How if you give me a persian kitten for me as a bday present?" I asked him on a calm afternoon.
"Allright. How if you're do some searching on website" I nodded.

I found a breeder whom want to sell his persian kitten with tabby color. I fell in love since in the first place. But in the end, I can't got the persian cat because My ex wanted to change his gift. I just can say "well, it's okay actually. Sure, I really want the cat, but if that thing really meant to be mine, it would come to me one day". And voila! this morning, 27 February 2014, a year and a week after my 16 bday my Mom brought a white female persian cat for me. I lost my breathe for a moment when I saw that. My mom told me that her friend gave this cat (her name is Josshi) because her house already full of kitty.

I learn, in the end. Everything what we really want, will comes to our way for sure if we try and pray.
No doubt. My mom finally have a chance to go Umrah this end of the year. She will go for free because the accomodation is paid by her friend. My mom really wanted to left her footprints on Makkah since when I'm on 4th grade of elementary school. And, she got it! :). Pray her the best.

I got a great quote from a movie I watched yesterday. P.S I Love You. The quote said by Billy to Holly in the movie when Holly awkwardly stopped his kisses. I've read the novel but the film gave me a phosporous feeling :')

"You don't need to look for a shoes which fit in your feet. How about barefoot sometimes?" - P.S I Love You

So, I think I don't need to be worried for what I can get this time. A shoes, a bag, or even a boyfriend. That doesn't really matter. I believe everything will comes at the right moment. And I believe too I shall more grateful if things I really wanted comes in the right time. :) If I've ever tried the result is on God's hand. If anything doesn't comes to my way either, it means it's not supposed to be mine or will give a bad effect for me :)

Have a good day!




Nyoron