Karena Aku Terus Berjalan

Aku merasakan jumputan kata-kata itu untukku.
Kepada kakak yang telah memberikanku pelajaran 6 bulan lalu.
Tentang cinta, sakit, dendam, kemenangan, kehilangan, dan disayangi.
Aku telah berjalan kembali di jalur yang ku bangun beserta mimpi.
Mimpi baru tanpa kakak di sisi.
Mimpi milikku sendiri.
Mimpi yang selalu ku percaya akan membawaku bahagia.
Tanpa kakak disini.

Karena aku terus berjalan,
aku tak ingin menebak apakah kakak akan mengejar.
Dan rasanya aku tidak perlu khawatir soal itu.
Kita telah memilih jalan masing-masing.
Seperti yang kakak katakan dahulu.
"jalan kita akan saling silang bila waktunya nanti tiba"

Aku tidak meminta kakak untuk menungguku
atau mengejarku
Tapi jika kakak menginginkanku kembali
Maaf aku tidak bisa, untuk saat ini sepertinya.
Karena aku terus berjalan dan tak mau menoleh ke belakang.

Mari kita hidupkan jalan yang kita pilih!
Sampai jumpa kakak!
Karena kita akan terus berjalan, bukan?


Jakarta, 6 Maret 2014

Hulla December!

Yeay! It's December. And I write this post on my old office! (re:Nuga Net) aaaaah I miss the old times as operator :3
So, yes! This is December people. Just count a few days away to face up brand new year. How's you resolution? How's your plan for 2014? How many things you've done this year? Anything new, good, bad, exciting, and so on? :D

Well, as I told you before, December and November quitely becomes my favorite months. It's so lovely with rain everyday and humid weather, isn't it?

Talking about new year, review this past one year has been give me a lot of courage and knowledge. I feel so grateful and blessed whenever I think about this year. Experience is a great teacher though. I experienced a huge heartbroke, and God shows me that I able to passed that! It's wonderful things to wonder and tingling in your mind, right? When you thought you couldn't pass through any obstacle, but God leads you to pass and found another great things, in the end. :) *take a deep breath*. I always believe that God is good. God gives me a hard obstacle to be super grateful of having what I got right now. And so be it! God plans is the best of all.

And, after woke up again from deep desperation, I promise myself to be a better person. Be the best for myself to show "them" that I'm strong enough to face the world! Yay!

I feel more dare to try a new things. Until now, I'm practicing Muay Thai with my best friend Timo and Syafiq. I build a better relationship and spare some quality times with my brothers, Fahmi and Ipan. I set a goal to enter Institute Technology of Bandung next 2 years, and re-arrange my plan. I try to be more productive in art, do school task :p and behave well also remove most of my childish act that may annoys person around my circle. I met some inspiring person. I also had my work-training runs smoothly and contribute well on Aetra Air Jakarta :D I'm so happy!

So, if people ask me how much my resolution this year accomplished, I'll answer you 80% :D
And I think it's quietly a great marks! Maybe 10% of plans I arranged before doesn't match well with God's plan and the rest 10% isn't supposed to realized this year.

It's okay, the good thing I know is I did my best and will always try the best for the rest of this year.

So, try me 2014 ;)
I'll make a bigger resolution for next year, it's important to have a resolution every year (especially rational resolution) for makes you passionate enough to live!
Pursuit your happiness :)

And, here's my poetry I made last month. Just found it on my phone's note.

Sang Pemeluk Hujan

by: Indah Febryyani

November kembali datang tahun ini

Mendung menggelayuti dan saling menjajaki

Rintik turun diantara hati,

karena menunggu hal yang tidak pasti

Ini adalah cerita dalam puisi

tentang kami....

Sang pemeluk hujan

 Terus menari

Terus berlari

Terus bermimpi

Bersamanya sepanjang hari

Tanpa tahu kemana harus membawa sosok diri.

jakarta, 5 November 2013

22.56

Have a nice day, and happy bday my blog! happy 2 years! We spent a good times together :*






Nyoron

Selamat Ulang Tahun, Ma!

Masa

Indah Febryyani

Dentang detik terdengar menjauh

Tak ayal dunia hendak runtuh

Terdengar lolongan haru

Menunggu kejutan baru

Malam ini di masa lalu telah lahir ke dunia

Seseorang yang ku sebut Ibu

Sosok yang tegar menjalani hidup

Mengarungi masa, mengenggam asa

Selamat bertambah usia

Selamat bertambah tua

Kini kau menyatu dengan semesta

Di umur empat puluh dua

Jakarta, 26 November 2013

Selesai ditulis 14:00

Selamat ulang tahun, Ma. Maaf belum bisa ngasih kebahagiaan sepenuhnya, belum bisa ngasih kemewahan, belum bisa bayar jasa asi dan gendong dulu. But deep in my heart, I always want to build a good bond between us. No more fight, no more yells, just smile and relax.

Thanks for giving birth of me. Thanks for caring me along this 17 years. Thanks for fighting my life.

Thanks Thanks Thanks :'D

Semoga anakmu ini bisa cepat membahagiakan mu, ya!

November Rain

Hello! Oh Gosh, i really miss my private time with my blog :')
And here I am. sit down, wearing my sweater because rain pours all day long.
Yes, it comes to be my favorite month every year because everyday is a rainy day! :)
well, honestly i don't want to mention how bad the weather and how it influenced to environments. Fluiding in Jakarta, storm, imbalance heat and so on. But it still my favorite month.

I'm on my recovery from rainy-sick. I pushed my physic too hard yesterday since in the morning. Did routine Futsal from 8 till 11 a.m  and  continue practice Muay thai with Timo (after so long time no see) from 12 to 2 p.m. And then, i trapped in such f-cking rain when i went home. whoaaa~ It's because my mood and motivation to get healthier is back! hahaha and it's also to keep my endurance step up. I wish my recovery will be fast.

And I have finished my task! my mega higa advertising project is done! but.......... I wanna cry. why? because my softcopy file is already gone and deleted while i want to re-render it Q__Q and I must work behalf on last project saved.

Anyway, here's some poetry I made during November Rain and wrote it on my sketchbook. November rain always have a different poetry scheme.

SEDARAH

Engkau tumbuh bersama dengan rasa

Tidak teraba ego mudah mengudara

Tapi lihatlah,

Kita menjalani dengan seksama

Ketukan waktu yang tidak kentara

Telah mengantarkan kita sama-sama dewasa

Langkahmu dan langkahku telah bertemu

Kemudian kita melebur jadi satu

Takdir kita saling silang

Bahagiakah aku?

Hilangkah lara ku?

Ya, kamu!

Ingatlah bait ini dan setiap aksara di dalamnya

Ketika dunia mulai mendoktrinmu

Dan punggung hendak berpaling

Kau akan temukan aku

Untuk membelai sejuk menghapus gugur

Untuk Sylvan Zikri Rahman

18 November 2013

10:57