The Art of Waiting

Have you ever feel like nothing supposed to be yours?

Have you ever feel like things you wanted so bad fallen on to someone else?

Have you ever feel like this cosmic doesn’t give you a damn for your wish?

Mine? I do.

I often think about circumtances around me. There’s plenty of time whenever things I picked up as my list suddenly worn out and bent to somebody else. I’ve experienced a kind of phase. My friend, she’s so gorgeous, smart *not in sarcastic way*, and wanted. I don’t want seems so arrogant here, but “Why nobody wants me as her does?”.

To blabbering shits here, I want to explain my point of view about her. Yes, she’s smart but just in some subject. She does good at math, physic, and so on. But she’s rather known to be “first class popper” than “mrs. Ocean of knowledge”. Me the number two. I bet you for her acknowledge about who the hell is Abraham Lincoln, she didn’t even get a clue. Is that my analogy straight enough?

Second, she’s gorgeous. She’s a teenage dancer, has a sexy body yet proportional and models look-a-like. Me? I’m not kind of things I mentioned above. I’m short, my body not proportional. But I love mine, and grateful about that. Why must I waste my time asking for what I can’t get since in the first place? Perhaps I don’t have a proportional size, a mezmering style which caught everyone sight but I just love the way I am. But, well to be honest, every man wants a great pieces. Instead of finding what great inside, they find what great outside. I can’t blame them anyway because the way I love men both from their looks and intelligence they had.

Men usually get impressed by looks first. What I can learn from highschool lovers is, they rarely looking for someone which has a great intelligence and enjoy talking nothing in a long term. That’s why I found less interest for man in my age. Their ego and pride insulted if they didn’t get a beautiful woman or so on (eventhough I know rest of them still alive, but who cares?). Brain? Who’s have it?.

Most of highschool man needs an approval. Aprroval of what? Approval of existence of course. Going to hype places, having a brand new devices, and shits they don’t even know what’s for. My logic get insulted by how dumb they live for. Mayhaps, they don’t know what their goals, what their aim for living, and what’s thing they really wanted and how to get it instead begging from their parents. Imagine how sucks it is. (Once again, I talked about majority)

I already seems so arrogant, don’t I? So let’s make it even further.

She’s bitch

But she doesn’t kill my vibe. Someone told me: “In life, you’ll find a phase when you feel waiting is worthed. No need to rush, no need to be worried. What you really wanted will comes to your way. But you acquired to fighting, that’s the rule”

I can’t agree anymore.

My friend whom I mentioned here, wanted by many man. I can’t blame her for having such a good-looking face, rite? The only thing I can compare with her is my knowledge. But back to square one, men usually impressed by looks. *can you hear my sarcastic laugh here?*

She’s wanted by my teacher too. My very-fucking-awesome teacher. Haha *cries of pity*. To be honest, I just like the way my teacher taught us. Nothing more. He’s actually good looking but I knew he already have a girlfriend. And I hold on to rule don’t take somebody’s belonging. But whyyyyyyyyyyyy God whyyyyyyyyy? I felt thrown away when my teacher asked: “Is that M already have a boyfriend?”. How come I should answered that question?

“Oh well, she’s single. But she’s a pathetic bitch whose wanted by many and looking for her prince (which this way meant: PDKT to this and that and pick them as she does grocery shopping, Doesn’t like, then throw away).

No, instead answered with that, I prefer a smooth way of talking

“She’s single. But she’s now having a date with someone”

I need a glass of margarita or cosmopolitan.

Does she mentioned every attention they deliver to her? Yes, she does.

She said she doesn’t want to seems “sok jual mahal” or cocky. BUT CAN YOU PLEASE MAKE A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BEING COCKY AND BITCHY PUHHLEASE? Isn’t it so bitchy by replying every bbm and messages from whoever adored you? Gah!

Close enough, my haid is in pain and my head remnisince me by Kings of Leon song.

Nyoron