Hello again!

Hello!
Wait, terakhir kali gue nge post kapan ya? haha uda lama banget!
Februari sudah selesai~ dan sekarang sudah masuk awal Maret. I'm so freakin bussy with school's stuff, apalagi udah menjelang UN gini, boro-boro online deh, sekedar blogwalking aja ngga sempet.
Sebulan lagi gue bakal menghadapi UN nih haha. Excited! Pengen cepet cepet lulus tapi gak mau pisah sama anak anak gesrek di kelas :(

Time flies so fast! Parah... gue aja takut tau-tau gue udah mau masuk college life. Katanya sih college life itu new phase of life yang penting banget. Ya gue sih gak gitu mikir macem-macem. Cuma kepengen diterima di universitas yang gue mau, prodi yang gue mau, dan lancar urusan beasiswanya (aamiin)

Happy birthday juga buat Breda! ulang tahun di atas awan dia, 19 Februari pas banget imlek. niatnya sih mau ke rumahnya cuma gak bisa karena dia ada flight. Malah jadinya makan pizza di kostnya fahmi buat pre-bday gue. Padahal mah tadinya buat ngerayain ultah Breda yang ke 26 :p (cie tua!!)

Kemarin 20 Februari, gue berulang tahun yang ke 18. A great new age rite?
Gak kerasa bentar lagi gue kepala 2 hahaha. Bukan muka dua! Dan gue bersyukur banget di ulangtahun gue yang ke-18 kemarin akhirnya GUE DAPET BIRTHDAY CAKE. dari tiga orang berbeda dan dua kota yang terpisah :'). Why I'm being so happy of thus cakes? Karena pertama dan terakhir kali gue dapet kue itu pas umur gue 2 tahun, which was 16 tahun lalu. Ya pas kemaren itu gue udah pasrah sih wakaka. udah biasa ga dapet apa-apa jadinya udah santai. Expecting too much will kills rite? Eh ternyata, temen-temen gue yang otakny audah pada geser itu ngasi gue kue! Hahaha.

Kue pertama dari Mas Fian dan dia ngirim pic pas jam 12 malem haha! Itu gue langsung histeris nelepon dia. Sayang kuenya gabisa di makan, jauh men di Malang! hahah
Sorenya, selesai ujian praktik renang, gue pergi ke rumah nenek gue dan gue dikasi blackforest. Gilaaa seneng banget gue, like it's been more than ten years they never remeber the date of my birth.

Makan kue nya di rumah dan ngadain small party. Cuma ada gue, nyokap, bokap, sama cici gue. Gak kerasa in few months gue bakal pergi dari rumah itu buat nuntut ilmu ke luar kota. Tahun depan bakal beda lagi ceritanya.

Agak malem sedikit, gue janjian makan dimsum sama Oche dan Ambon di Queen Dimsum, belakang rumah gue kan. Pas kita selesai makan, si Oche izin ke belakang, taunya......

JENG JENG

She came with the cake, the most epic cake written "Happy Bday Nyoro, Our dearest bitch" on it. Bang Mirga sama tante cuma cengengesan aja pas itu kue di bawa. That night, was really amazing, and grateful. Gak ngerti gue mau bilang apalagi sama semua anak gesrek yang surrounding my life.

Doa gue buat umur baru dan tahun baru adalah....

1. Gue lulus UN dan SMK dengan nilai memuaskan
2. Lolos SNMPTN 2015 dan Bidikmisi
3. Rejeki gue lancar terus, bisa terus aktif kerja
4. Gue kepengen banget bisa punya mobil di usia muda! dan gue pengen punya mobil secepetnya dengan uang keringet sendiri. Mobil impian gue itu sebenernya Ford Everest sama Nissan X-Trail cuma untuk sementara gue pengen dikasih rejeki biar bisa beli Kia Picanto aja deh atau Nissan March :)
5. I want to keep my gym routine. Sejak awal Januari sampe gue nulis ini, gue udah menjalani program diet OCD (will update soon) dan rutin nge gym. Gue pengen badan gue lean dan berotot sehat kayak Agnez Mo :))
6. Orangtua gue sehat dan rejekinya lancar
7. Kucing-kucing gue beranak pinak dan makin lucu
8. Gue bisa awet-awet sama Mas Fian meski sekarang masih jauh.

udah itu doang hahaha :D
Semoga bisa terkabul satu per satu ya!
Dream, believe, and make it happen anyway :)

Ciao!


Nyoron

AN UGLY TRUTH OF BEING ME

I have a self esteem issue. I always feel insecure and constantly worry about what people may think about me. I hate myself whenever this bad trait comes over and cover my confident to be a “normal” person. When I said normal, it means that I want to be careless about unnecessary thing. But, I just can’t stand myself whenever I got any criticism. I became very sensitive and mad? I don’t know why.

People used to know me as a cheerful, active, and careless woman. Well, I wish I was like that but I am not. In fact, I’m a shy person (but thanks to my adaptable and curious traits which help me a lot). I don’t like being in a society/place/zone where I don’t get any notice (yeah.. now I’m sound like an egocentric human) that’s explain much why I usually find myself going anywhere alone. There’s just something soothing about being alone and no one bother you yet makes you fell like an alien, worst feeling ever. It also become the main reason why I seemed have a lot of friends but just go with the same person on weekend. I can count with my fingers how many person in my life is really important and know me well so they wouldn’t complain much whenever this sensitive side arises. And they’re really important for me.

But, insecure always be an insecure, rite? Eventho, I’ve said that I have only few people that finally understand me, I sometimes feel all alone. Like the best person in your life still left a hole in our heart, right?

Another point, I don’t like get any criticism, especially about my body. They mainly give a comments about my body size and my skintone. Hellooo, dear Gawd, If I could ask God how I want to be created, I wished I’m the one with fair skin and model-ish body. But we all can’t ask to do so. So, I try to change by myself. I do diets, workouts, endless jogging, crunches, sit-up, push-up, and so on. I also keep my skin as fair as I can. I know I can’t have such a Chinese’s fair skin like my mother and father race but keep it a healthy tan or middle tone. I’ve tried. Don’t say I’m not. But I started to feel those beauty marks-up tiring me out and shit. One time, a friend of mine said that I don’t gradually change like any puberty did on my other girl friends and I suddenly felt so mad and shame(?). Like, the hell he really knew my workouts and diets routine. Like, the hell he really knew how hard for me to change to be better.

I have a to-die-for bestfriend since we on same Junior High School. Her name’s Oche. We were just a usual teenagers we used to be. We weren’t famous, in one word: unoticeable. But things going different since we entered High School. Puberty, society, mentality changed us. Me? Still an ordinary person I used to be, on other side Oche really become so famous, prettier, noticeable, and many good things comes her way. And whenever I stand near her, I feel I’m just being her shadow. And I HATE to feel so. But I can’t blame her. Beside she’s my bestfirend, she doesn’t have a thing to be blame.

This self esteem issue really freaks me out. I know, it’s not a healty trait and people keep telling me “be grateful for what you have” I do, guys. I did. So, this is my ugly truth. Not a really impressive post for start a year right? I wish I’m not the only one who feel so.

cheers'

nyoron

The End of Path

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015 FRIENDDDSSS!

Omg, feel so excited to welcome the new page of the year :) So, here comes another blank 365 (now it's only 364) pages to fill out. I felt a bit sorry because lately I'm so busy (yet lazy) to share something in this not-so-private space. Actually I already plan to write this post yesterday but because the weather ways too comfy and my friends were evade my home for new year eve, I got no leisure time #slap.

I'd like to do my habit every end of the year (yes, now it's the begining of year, lel) : KALEIDOSCOPE!

Annnnd the playlist which accompany me tonight is Adhitia Sofyan from his third album - How To Stop Time. A very humble, sweet, and lullaby tracks for rainy day enthusiast. *click play*

Here it goes~

JANUARY

I barely remember how I start the first month of 2014 but I guess I was still hold onto my pain of losing someone I love along this month. I know it's so cliche and people were like "why you always had a bad ending of every relationship?". Welp, I dunno. I just remember on January 25, I was visiting that guy and my darkest assumption was true. It was really hurt and hard for me to let him go though we only being together for about 4 months.

FEBRUARY

I always put my biggest love through this month. This is the month full of loves and prosperity. Chinese New Year means a fresh surplus in my pocket :p. My sweet-seventeen so on birthday they said. I finally turned 17! Yay. Now, I'm a legally adult by government. I've been living for 17 years. My mom cooked a simple home dish for three of us. My birthday was very very humble and simple. Celebrated by just three of us, yet I still thankful having my schoolmates whom still remember my day! :) A simple hapiness I could get effortlessly.

Breda actually remember my birthday and being the last person whom greet me that day meanwhile I already texted him yesterday of his bday.

Something strange and awkward happened this month on my way to get rid of the January stuffs.

MARCH

This month, I struggle for many things. I'm so procastinate and lazy to remeber any bad thing happened among this month ;) It's the deepest and thoughtful month of the year.

The only good thing I can remeber is paid some visit to Kepulauan Seribu for one day trip with Wisnu.

APRIL

I did some short vacation to Curug Pangeran again just to remember shooting vacation of me and my friends doing here last year. I went there with Yoi, some fella in Bogor right after his accomplishment of National Examination.

MAY

JOGJA!! Yeay~ 48 VHS '15 finally had a vacation to Jogja. It's actually my first time went to Jogja. We go there by bus start from Monday 12 May till Thursday 15 May. We took a trip to Prambanan temple, Borobudur temple, Keraton Jogja, and paid a field trip to Sekolah Menengah Seni Rupa, Kasihan Bantul. 

We also took a short vacation to Kebun Raya Bogor the next Sunday for photography task given by our teacher.

JUNE

exams. exams. exams. And yet on June 16 it should be a special date, only if we didn't broke up last year :) well nevermind. I just kind of person whom easily remember things.

and this month, I finally able to made up my mind and heal my wound for my January "mini-tragedy"

I can easily let everything go after finally know what I did is true. Anything he did (his true face) below his surface really woke me up. An usual way of every break-up is to find a great meaning behind every wound and embrace the distance apart. #halah

My veryfirst blood donation.

I still couldn't believe that it took 5 months for me to let him go easily and get rid of him out of my mind.

JULY

Examination for my 2nd grade of high school life. I made it!

And, this month was really special too! because this is the month when I met Irul (capchoi.blogspot.com) last year :)) now he already focused on his French Literature study on Padjajaran University, Jatinangor. I wish any miracle and unicorn posion posses' his path. Amen.

Also, I'm joining a logo competition held by Lenggang Jakarta

I spend my Lebaran holiday to Harapan Island with Kak Echie and his nephew joining Kak Jiwo group.

Also I left kind of asshole this month. It was really frustating being near him.

AUGUST

Just something from the past coming back to my life and ruined my wall :) Was I let him in again and take back anything for granted? No.

He supposed to go away with his new companion.

GOOD NEWS FROM LENGGANG JAKARTA! My logo design are nominated for the best five! Need some revision and the prize is waiting for us. (also a chance to take selfie shoot with DKI Frontman (soon that time) Mr. Ahok!)

at the same time with Lenggang Jakarta e-mail, our group (Indaher, Diah, Vita, Yola, and me) winning the brain mapping and coral reef transplantation design. We won the grand prize which is a field trip to Harapan Island (again!) with luxury facilities, not like my low-budget vacation last month.

I think this is the turn over of every bad things happen. This is my lucky month of 2014.

SEPTEMBER

Sylvan Zikri Rahman and Rachman C. Muchlas birthday! nothing greater than knowing those guy are growing up so fast :)

I hike to Papandayan mt with Bikin Jejak (Mas Abi travel group) and made new friends~

I won the logo design competition by Lenggang Jakarta after a long and exhausted process. I got a great amount of prize and really grateful of it. Another portfolio of my artwork! Yay

Joshi finally born her babies. There are Alex, Brivi, and Frisia.

OCTOBER

My father's bday. I put my best effort to make him happy with the money I got from previous competition. Dad was really happy and grateful by the surprise I put that day. Also I won NASAFEST poster competition with Indaher. Double Trouble! hahaha. Irul's bday too!

I got my very first tattoo on October 4 by JAINK tattoo :) my long-long dream goal!

yearbook photosession. School stuffs. Try out. Tiring deadline, papers, etc etc. Infograohic task.

I went to Gede Pangrango mt. too

NOVEMBER

 Nothing really special this month except Mom's bday and Fahmi's bday.

Infographic animation task. End of Semester Examination. 3D house modelling task. blablabla.

and my Mom was going to prepare her Umrah trip. So busy with this and that.

DECEMBER

The last month of year felt coming so fast. Examination done! We worked really hard to put a high amount of  effort for this last semester of High School. But yeah, unfortunately, my final report wasn;t really extravagant. My average point is raised up but my rank was going down to 11th place. The last classmeeting was really fun too!

My 3D modelling house project is done! But unfortunately I lost  one project for some event held by local High School because of kinda internal things they had.

My Mom finally had her dreams granted. She went to Umrah for like 9 days and along thus day only me and Daddy tagging around the house.

I went to Jogja since December 25 till December 28 to prepare my university stuffs and move to Jogja. Nothing really fancy except I could met my old long gone fellas there :)

Once again, happy new year folks!

Hope you had a great new year ahead. I wish we could reach and accomplish any target we made :D

It doesn't really matter of bad things happened around this year. Just remember the good one because we able to pass thru it! And alhamdulillah, I think I already accomplish 90% of my goals this year.

xoxo,

Nyoron!

Recently...........

Gue selalu suka Adam Levine. Untuk memperjelas, gue selalu suka lagu-lagu mellow yang Adam buat dan nyanyiin. Udah nonton Begin Again? Gue baru nonton trailernya sih (harus nonton kalo nanti udah keluar di XXI).. tapi asli, I shed a tears so much after heard the song. Adam emang gak pernah gagal deh bikin gue termehe-mehe setiap abis dengerin dia nyanyi yang sedih. Poin yang gue suka adalah, lagu mellow dia engga make kalimat yang terlalu romantis dan lebay. He strike our heart by its methapor and unique lyrics. Sad, Just A Feeling, dan sekarang Lost Stars.

Tiap gue denger lagu ini, gue ngerasa blank. Kayak ada black hole gede di hidup gue. Am I the lost star? I think so.

Kadang gue masih suka hilang arah tujuan gitu. Bingung sendiri sama semua keputusan yang udah membentuk gue seoerti sekarang.

Gue Cuma berharap gue nggak hilang dan bisa terus berjalan menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik!

Recent favorite songs on my playlist (especially after watching The Judge 2 weeks ago)

Willie Nelson      - The Scientist

Bon Iver               - Holocene

Adam Levine      - Lost Star

Redtop                 - Come and Get Your Love

Bon Iver               - Skinny Love

This sh*tty life

Sejak malem, news feed BBM nggak jauh-jauh soal kenaikan BBM. Ada yang setuju, ada yang biasa aja (karena mereka make Sh*ll), ada yang marah-marah dan blame pemerintahan Jokowi, yang tersesat malah ngomongin soal UCL. So, i turned off BBM notifications and got to sleep late.

Besok pagi? Makin parah. Ada yang nggak tau harga premium naik. Ada yang (masih) sibuk berkoar dan menyalahkan pihak atas. Lama-lama gue gerah juga sama yang blabbering shits ini. So, here’s some of their opinions about gasoline price recently.

BBM naik kesel setengah mati. Harga rokok naik masih tetep selow

Besok ke sekolah gue jalan kaki aja dah

Besok beli minyak jelantah buat ganti premium

Ini nih janji Pak Presiden soal menyejahterahkan rakyat?! Ini namanya menginjak-injak rakyat sendiri

I laughed so hard like Godzilla when read the last comment. It came from my ex-teacher and he’s in university right now. Ini nih mahasiswa calon penerus bangsa? All I can assume is, his comment was very subjective, not objective.

Begini ya, terlepas dari gue pernah menjadi pendukung Jokowi saat Pemilu 2014 kemarin, masalah kenaikan premium ini nggak bisa di blame sepenuhnya ke pemerintahan Jokowi. To put it bluntly, dari dulu harga bbm kan naik, cepat atau lambat pasti harga BBM selalu punya ancang-ancang untuk naik. Jadi, sorry, buat kalian yang marah berlebihan kepada pemerintah sekarang (apalagi kalau kalian oposisi), kalian tolol. :)) Kemana aja suara kalian pas BBM naik menjadi Rp. 6500/liter beberapa tahun lalu? Logikanya adalah, bahan bakar adalah sumber daya terbatas dan selalu menipis stoknya, kalaupun naik ya pasti wajar lah.

Kedua, dengan naiknya harga BBM, otomatis anggaran dana negara bisa dihemat secara efisien dan dialokasikan untuk pembangunan di berbagai sektor. Konsumsi BBM berada di poin prioritas kedua setelah makanan. Pemerintah ya ngga bakal bisa selamanya menetapkan anggaran yang begitu besar hanya untuk subsidi BBM sementara banyak program pembangunan yang harus dijalankan. Ini tuh ibarat kalian pengen tetap makan enak, kesehatan terjamin, duit keluar sedikit tapi sekalian meras orang tua yang tercekik anggaran tetap setiap bulannya. Pengorbanan Rp. 2000 di kita sebenarnya belum seberapa dengan kenaikan yang dialami warga Indonesia timur. Orang timur harga BBMnya bisa bikin mata melotot hati kebakaran jenggot. Tapi bisa kita lihat, they still struggle to extend their living with the fantastic gasoline price. Bagi mereka itu biasa, kita bisa bilang gitu. Tapi harusnya kita bisa berpikir, bukankah egosentris banget kalau kita disini merongrong soal kenaikan BBM sementara tujuan kenaikan tersebut juga untuk membantu mereka disana? Think again!

Ketiga, udah pernah ada yang nonton Brain Games season 2 pas episode “You Decide” ? Disitu dijelaskan soal manusia yang setiap hari dihadapkan oleh pilihan sesimpel apapun. Ketika lo dikasih pilihan mau beli popcorn ukuran besar dengan harga $7 atau yang kecil seharga $3, most of people choose the small one. Kenapa? Karena gap harga yang besar antara dua ukuran tersebut membuat otak kita memutuskan untuk memilih yang kecil, dengan asumsi itu sama-sama popcorn dan cuma  makanan selingan. Not so fancy. Tapi, ketika diberikan distraksi berupa ukuran medium seharga $6,50 orang-orang malah pick the large one. Kenapa pula? Karena saat itu cortex otak manusia (cmiiw) memilah dan membandingkan. Intinya, semakin tipis gap harga satu ukuran dengan lainnya, kita akan memilih yang lebih besar/lebih baik dengan asumsi akan merugi bila milih yang lebih kecil/biasa aja. We were being manipulated by our own brains, congratulations!

So that’s why, in my assumption, pemerintah secara tidak langsung mempersuasi kita agar beralih ke pertamax dan (secara tidak langsung) pula menjaga kualitas mesin dengan memakai bahan bakar dengan kulitas yang lebih baik :).

Gue bukan fanatis Jokowi, bukan groupies kotak-kotak. Bagaimanapun, ketika presiden pilihan gue berhasil memimpin negara, tugas kita sebagai warga negara tetap harus mengawasi. Oposisi bukan soal prinsip, oposisi adalah soal hak dan tanggung jawab warga negara.

Pipis, love, and gaol

Nyoron

Interstellar - A Breathtaking Movie of The Year

“Mankind was meant to be born here, but not to die here”

Quote diambil dari tokoh dandy ganteng ala-ala yang lagi ngeracunin otak gue #slapped

Science, physic, 3rd laws of Newton, black hole, 5th dimensional world, String’s theory, father-daughter bonding. Are you craving for a great sci-fi movie? You should watch this one. Well-concept and easy to understand movie.

It’s been a long time since the last time I review a movie. So, it means If I mind to type the review, the film would be so awesome. And so it does. Interstellar was amazing and breath-taking. Ada yang nonton Interstellar cuma karena ratingnya di iMDB yang tempting abis, ada juga yang nonton karena happening dan most uploaded di path. Ada. Awalnya, I’m one of those. Namun, karena gue orangnya terlalu malas buat nonton film berdurasi lama tanpa tau jalan ceritanya (apalagi kalo Cuma buat pamer di Path), so I googled it. Hampir keselek pas buka-buka review malah lebih kayak spoiler, and most of blogger gave a lot of applause toward the movie. So, let’s give a hit!

Interstellar menceritakan bumi di penghujung abad ke-20 dimana seperti yang telah diprediksi akan mengalami badai debu dan polusi tanah berkepanjangan. Kelaparan, sesak nafas, penyakit menular. Pada masa tersebut, perang tidak lagi terjadi, fisikawan dan orang pintar sudah tidak diperlukan. Intinya, manusia ada untuk menjaga sisa hidup bumi, bukan untuk menjelajahinya lagi. Pemborosan investasi di abad ke-20 menyebabkan kesengsaraan bagi manusia.

Cerita dibuka dengan Cooper, mantan perwira AU yang memiliki anak bernama Murph. Murph merasa seperti dikelilingi oleh hantu. Kejadian seperti buku jatuh berpola morse, pasir yang membentuk kode biner dsb. Kode biner dari pasir tersebut awalnya dianggap adalah anomali gravitasi yang justru memberikan koordinat suatu tempat.

Singkat cerita, koordinat tersebut adalah underground office milik NASA. Mereka mengutus Cooper untuk ekspedisi mencari planet baru pengganti bumi bersama tiga astronot lainnya. Dr. Brand mengutus Amelia, anaknya, untuk ikut dalam ekspedisi menjalankan rencana A.

Christoper Nolan konsisten memberikan ending yang twisted. Not 100% happy ending, but relative satisfiy. Kenapa gue bilang endingnya relatif memuaskan? Karena menurut gue, dengan ending yang dia berikan, udah gak penting lagi gantung atau engga. Kita bakal tetap puas dengan penutup cerita. Ciri khas Nolan dalam membuat film lah intinya. Nolan sukses membuat gebrakan besar dengan membuat pengandaian dimensi ke 5 dan mengangkat hipotesa wormhole. Well, gue saking kebawa cerita, menganggap kalau wormhole beneran ada.

Gue nangis kejer setiap ada scene antar Murph dan Cooper. I posses a father’s complex :’). Film berdurasi hampir tiga jam ini emang nggak sehat buat kandung kemih, tapi believe me, you won’t miss a scene. Keluar dari bioskop dapet oleh-oleh mata sembap, tangan yang gatel buat Googling, dan mulut yang udah siap buat nyerocos soal astro-sciene. Kita teredukasi? Ya. Kita jadi sok tahu? Maybe. Mau nonton lagi? Sure.

Overall, dengan rating di iMdb yang mendekati sempurna, film ini sesuai ekspetasi gue. Tapi, ya kalo ekspetasi lo film yang lebih mengusung drama dan sciene ala kadarnya, film ini bikin lo kebelet pipis doang. Paling dapet basian upload di Path. Tapi, honestly, film ini nggak bikin ngantuk karena fase antar scene cepat, saling berkolerasi scene satu dengan lainnya, dan tetap well-understand buat yang nggak gitu sciene enthusiast. Mata gue bener-bener dimanja sama visualisasi outer-spacenya. Sound effect nggak begitu mengecewakan tapi yang paling keren menurut gue ketika kita pas lagi fokus ke film dan ada satu scene dimana ruangan biskop seperti kedap suara. Efek soundsless pas Cooper keluar dari spaceships itu greget dan bikin kuping terusik banget!

Film ini tetap enak dinikmati meski nggak nonton di IMAX. Santai aja. You’ll still get a breath-taking visual experience when watching it on regular XXI theater ;).

Applause for Nolan and the research team. (Is it me and others /ton/ fellas whom only  gave an applause after the movie? Lol)

Nyoron!

Ih gue bosen

Ih gue gak tau akhir-akhir ini males banget ngepost.
Gue sibuk, tau sibuk gak?
Tiap hari selonjoran sambil ngemilin soal matematika.
Kalo lagi ngaso, ngotak-ngatik soal fisika
Lagi bengong aja mikirin soal universitas.

Kayak otak gue engga istirahat cantik gitu deh.
Terus kalo ada senggang dikit pasti gue was-was. Takut gak belajar, takut ilmunya terbang, takut Cinta Fitri nambah episode lagi, takut CHSI ada helokiti baru, takut besok kiamat. Pokoknya takut deh.

Kelas 3....... bawaannya pengen cepet-cepet UN.
Pengennya cepetan perpisahan sama wisuda.
UN aja belom looo!!

Capek ah. Mau tidur siang dulu

Bhaaaay